Fixed Eyes

When the wind came so did the doubt. The waves became louder drowning out your voice.

These hands began to shake and my feet to slowly sink into the water below. I became consumed with doubt and question when I lost sight of your eyes. My sight became blurry and my feet became engulfed by the consuming water.

With fear in my voice I called out to you reaching out in utter fear, as soon as I yelled you reached out and pulled me up on the surface without hesitation. I had such doubt in my eyes and still He looked at me with such love despite my actions.

My doubt washed away as my feet were planted back on the surface. In one instant I had looked away and began to sink. What little faith I had, with my hands still trembling I held on while he guided me. Why did I doubt that he would follow through with his promise?

No matter the fear that overcame me I still had the reaction to call out for Him for help. I knew His love even when I thought I did not, I knew was not left alone.

No matter the depth of my fears and doubts he still comes everytime. He was alongside me and with me every single time no matter what. I had nothing to fear. I have nothing to fear. I became like Peter. I became distracted by wind and waves and lost sight of who truly mattered.

The longer I keep my eyes fixed on Him the stronger my faith becomes. Instead of looking away and fearing I put my trust in the one who guided me. My eyes were fixed and no longer weary. My feet were no longer stumbling or sinking but on a solid foundation. My hands grasped hard onto His.

And this is all a mystery. I'm still a girl discovering God but I have found the beauty in the mystery of his vast love.

Keep your eyes fixed on Him.

- Read Matthew 14:26-32

- A.S.

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